They say it takes 30 days to make a habit and only 3 to break it well here goes day 1 on my 30 day journey to a better me however I realize that my journey will not stop at 30 days. I am 28 years old and I have a life time of choices to make. I am always telling my children that ever action has a reaction ( thank you Sir Issac Newton). I feel as if the scales of who I have been are falling away from me and the new and improved version is under construction. I have many different construction sites that i am working on within my life. My walk with God , my marriage, my parenting style, my health (weight) , my friendships. It seems when I took a good hard look at myself with new perspective God's perspective I didn't like what I saw. There isn't one area of me that I am comfortable with. I need a complete redo. It isn't something that will happen overnight and I really don't want it to. For it is often said its not where you are going that matters its the journey . . .
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Walk with God - getting stronger learning to lean on Him for there isn't anything my Lord can't help me with. There is no project to hard or journey to long and I can do all things through Him that gives me strength.
My marriage - Well things are still uncertain. I am certain now more than I have ever been on my undying unending unconditional love for my husband. He is an amazing man. He is strong and unfortunately I have forced him to be emotional hardened. I pray that his heart will soften against me and allow us to rebuild a better and stronger marriage from the rubble I have left surrounding us.
My Children - Patience Love is Patient Love is kind. So that mean I need to be patient and kind. To look at my children every day through the eyes of the Creator who blessed me with them. To take heart that they are ours and it is solely our job to raise them. To do so with kindness and love in all that we do with them. To take time to snuggle and hear the same joke for the hundredth time and still laugh because they cared enough to tell it to me again. To always take the time and to care for them the way my Lord and Savior cares for me.
My Health - Not the greatest and definitely no my favorite subject but one that is holding me back from fully being able work on the other areas in my life. I have more than 100 lbs to lose and I will not wait one more day or allow one more excuse to get in my way.
Height - 5'4
Weight - 265 lbs.
BMI - 45.48
Just isn't acceptable any longer. I will not see that number again when I look down on the scale. I refuse to allow my weight to control me any longer.
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